Thursday, April 15, 2010

Leaving for China and Facing a Challenge

I leave for China on 4/19 and won't return to U.S. soil until 5/4.  It was a trip we both intended to make for my son's wedding, but we knew as time went on Pete wouldn't be able to make it and I would be traveling alone.  I am ready.  It will be an adventure.  I will make this journey, but hardly alone. 

I received news of my own today.  I have been diagnosed with endrometral  cancer.  It is in the early stages and I am not worried at all.  I will make the trip, enjoy myself, be there to meet my son's bride and her family and be proud to see them marry. 

I will return home to friends that will see to it that I am completely taken care of.  I have my own personal guardian angel that has done a fine job so far and shown me that life is worth living and fighting for and that it's O.K. to let someone else take care of you.

It's very different to be on this side after providing so much care.  It's very different to have people that care about you the way you cared about someone else.  It's very different to be the one getting needles stuck in you for blood work and having tests done at the hospital.  It somehow doesn't seem real.  But later next month after surgery I'm sure it will be very real. 

I am very lucky.  It could have been much worse.  I am lucky for having a doctor that truly has always looked out for my best interest and never left anything to chance.  I am lucky to have someone who has been by my side through all of this and who I can tell will continue to be by my sides along with other friends.  I am lucky for such good friends and someone special that cares so much for me.  I am very lucky and I can feel it.